Hello lovely lady,
I want to welcome you to this new space of mine. I love to write and I have always wanted to start a blog. But the couple times I looked into it, I was overwhelmed. So I put it aside with the desire to write still tucked in my heart. I knew I would write somewhere somehow but wasn’t sure how. Until I stumbled upon substack. It was very simple to set up and not overwhelming. Plus, it gave me the opportunity to possibly make a small income if you choose to pay or not. I loved the idea of providing the opportunity to pay if you want to support me and my family or to subscribe for free. I know budgets are tight right now and some can’t even afford an extra $5 a month. I get that. I’m right there with you. So no pressure. You do what you can and what you feel lead to do.
I am in a season right now of learning. Lots of learning. We are new to homesteading and to starting our own business. We decided to not only move half way across the US but also begin homesteading and start our own business. Yes, we are crazy and overwhelmed. Many days we question why exactly we did these things simultaneously. But, we see our inadequacies and our desperate need for the Lord. He is helping us. One day at a time.
With starting our own business, we lost our steady and very predictable income. Now we aren’t sure when the income will come. It’s very inconsistent and sporadic. But we knew that is pretty common in the beginning of a new business. Most days we are at peace and trust that the Lord will provide just what we need. And He always does. But there are days where I am not sure how we can keep doing this financially and fear begins to creep back in attempting to choke out the trust and peace that accompanies the trust. I do not have much extra time to devote to any side business currently. But I can write here and there and share my heart in this space. Whether that brings an income or not, I shall leave up to the Lord and continue to trust in His beautiful and faithful provision.
I am Buck’s helper. That’s what I was created for. (More about that in the next post). So in this season I am to help him with income in whatever way I can. To make time to do this. So, I pray for wisdom and balance as I juggle all the things I am called to do in this season of womanhood. It’s an honor really. It’s the most difficult thing to learn how to do well. But it is an honor.
I have struggled tremendously at how to do this all well quite honestly. I strive for perfection much of the time which leads to overwhelm and procrastination and idleness and then even more stress. It is not good. But God is good and in His goodness He is stripping me of these foolish tendencies. He is humbling me. He is helping me see my sins. And there are many. He is bringing me to the end of myself and my self reliance. I must decrease after all , and He must increase. Praise God.
So, yes, there has been many tears shed. There has been many questions asked of the Lord. I can not do this in my own strength. I can not make food from scratch, homeschool, homestead, take care of 21 animals, disciple, clean, organize, thrift, start a worm farm, and garden, and do it all with joy in my own strength. It’s impossible really. But nothing is impossible with God, and I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.
I am tired. Tired of doing this all in my human strength. Tired of just surviving each day. I want to thrive. I want to excel. I want to do the impossible with God’s strength. I want to be an excellent woman to bring Him glory and praise. I want to be set apart. Unlike the women of the world. A woman who does well in all things as she depends on her Father in heaven. How do I do that? How does one become an excellent woman? What even is an excellent woman?
That is why we are here. I am not writing this because I have arrived and am going to share the how tos from experience.
No. I am not qualified. I am inadequate. I am in the trenches of it all. Learning. Questioning. Failing. Forgiving. Growing. Trying again. Repenting. Trusting. I am right there with you dear woman. We are in this together. To exhort, encourage, pray for and sharpen one another.
I am a daughter of the Most High. I am His beloved. Thus, I shall strive for excellence in all I do for His glory.
I absolutely refuse to except the world’s definition of woman today. With His help, I refuse and turn away from complacency, compromise, and control. I repent of selfishness, pride, lethargy, idleness, and the like. Refuse, rebuke, repent. Repeat. I don’t want to look a thing like the women of the world. I want to look like Christ. The light and the salt.
It will be hard. Ugly at times. Lonely at times. Seemingly impossible. But it’s not impossible, remember.
So please pray for me. Pray that I can become the excellent woman God has called me to be. Pray that I can share what I am learning here humbly with you and that it will encourage you. And that God will be glorified through it all.
I will share all about spiritual, mental, and physical excellence. I will share scripture and things that I am doing to becoming an excellent woman. From food and hormones and exercise to sins and mental health. I’ll be covering it all Lord willing. Again, not because I know it all. I don’t. But to encourage and exhort and sharpen. As we are all called to do.
I’m thankful you are here. I pray that we can encourage and pray for one another as well as exhort and sharpen one another as women and sisters in Christ as we traverse this journey together.
So, that’s it. This is my lengthy introduction of myself and my journey to becoming an excellent woman.
You are the daughter of the Most High. His beloved. You are His creation. May we live like it.
God bless you friend, sister in Christ, lovely beloved.
Until next time.
Love, Tay
“Now, my daughter, do not fear. I will do for you whatever you ask, for all my people in the city know that you are a woman of excellence.”
Ruth 3:11
This gave me tears! Love how you write, and how raw and real you are. Looking forward following on with you ❤️
I’m looking forward to this! I am all too often holding an all or nothing attitude towards life, duties, or chores. And if I mess up I just forget it all and then hold on to an even uglier attitude. Which brings me to overwhelm and then I just feel tired and then I procrastinate. Which really boils down to becoming lazy rather than adjusting my attitude in the first place and not approaching tasks and goals with all or nothing. I’m still a major work in process. Looking forward to learning together in this journey!